I’ve had a nice serving of change over the past 6 months and as we all know change whether blissful or blows can take a lot out of you emotionally and phyiscally.
Throughout the most recent changes I’ve noticed that Im having a very difficult time forming words and thoughts.
Writing has always been a passion of mine – but pesky words aren’t forming actual thoughts effortlessly or fluently.
And talking is my favorite! But for the first time in my life, I’m actually a bit mute (at least in my opinion- friends and family with recent experience feel free to dispute).
Up until now, I’ve accepted this period of quietness as purposed for healing and restoration.
While I still believe this to be true (and a genius self preservation mechanism) I cant help but be struck by what I experienced this past Sunday night and how it left me curious about VOICE, freedom, and health…
Sunday night I went to an incredible event in NYC. The event, hosted by the genious K.C Baker, was celebrating 7 women with a fear of public speaking and a greater passion to speak who spent the past 8 weeks uncovering their message, disovering their voices, and creating beautiful coming out speaches on the message they felt most created to share.
It was incredible, electric, and a true honor to witness.
As I strolled the calm streets of New York City home that night I was left inspired and wondered,
“What is my voice? What is the message I would want to say to this world if given 10 minutes and listening ears?”
In typical Mary C fashion I started to formulate in my mind the perfect speech with a killer hook, rises and falls, a final charge, and a call to action that would have Mother Tersea herself asking where to sign up!
But I could sense this was all fluff.
Was I really saying what I felt in the core of my being needed to be said and heard?
If not, then what would it take to discover that?
Is that, what yogies and hippies call your “truth”???
When I got home, as I unpacked my bag of conference goodies & giveaways I pulled out a sticker (yup, i think one might even call it a bumper sticker) that read:
———–”Forget about saying the right thing. Just say the TRUE thing.”———-
Mmm mmm now THAT is a good word.
Sadly, however, this is a bit of a foreign concept to me.
I have a long history of people pleasing** and exhausting myself trying to determine what others want me to say and do and then becoming that even if it means losing myself and my voice (which gets burried deeper and deeper by the day).
**Health Coach Moment: This behavior, this people pleasing: the stress it brings and anger it fermits, has a direct effect on weight loss. I believe that the person who still struggles with this will always struggle with weight.
End people pleasing, start losing weight.
Which brings me back to my story…
Yes, I thought. That is true. That is a good good word.
I instantly felt lighter and free.
And as it relates to my health and clients health: Could encouraging myself and others to UNCOVER + EXPRESS their truth be a key not only to releasing years of unexpressed beauty but also years of unnecessary weight as a result of the unexpressed?
Getting deep, this I know! But does that ring true for any of you? Damn, it inspires me to keep digging…
I’ve been sitting on that for the past few days now. And I would say I’ve become fiercely dedicated to uncovering what is true within me.
This life transition and all of this change therefore is even more of a blessing.
Sure it’s left me a little mute.
But it’s also left me quiet for long enough that I could hear this message.
And the newness of change creates the possibility to start fresh.
And the opportunity to speak that which is really you, that which is really true.
May we all have the courage to:
—Forget about saying the right thing
—and just say the TRUE thing.
While fiercely believing that in doing so we are freeing ourselves and providing a real contribution to the world around us.
And maybe, just maybe, as the anger of suppression subsides our bodies will respond kindly by releasing any stress, depression, or weight that is no longer needed.
With love and gratitude,